Lately, I’ve been spending a lot of time getting my podcast started.
It’s called A Light Up Ahead, and I’m very excited to have another way to help people experience the light of Christ on a regular basis. If all goes according to plan, it will go live this coming Sunday, July 1st.
Part of the process in getting a podcast published in the iTunes store is submitting your show for review. I’ve heard that it can sometimes take up to five days to get your show approved. So I had set yesterday to be my goal for submitting my podcast to the iTunes store.
That meant I needed to have my podcast totally set up by last night.
As expected, setting this up has been much more involved and expensive than I had first thought. And of course, there aren’t formal instructions anywhere, but there is an abundance of sites that walk through how to set up a podcast using their (not free) services.
The evening was growing late, but I felt like I was getting closer to figuring everything out and finalizing the recording of my first episode. I knew I should have gone to bed, but I really wanted to get this finished and sent to the iTunes store. So I decided to stay up until I had it done…
Finally, around 3am, (yes, 3am) I had everything finished up. I was ready to submit my podcast to the iTunes store. After typing in the feed URL, you log in with your iTunes info, and then you wait as iTunes validates your feed.
The moment of truth.
“Your hosting service does not support byte range requests. Please enable byte range requests to continue,” iTunes told me.
Instantly I was deflated.
Whatever a byte range request is, I discovered that hostgator.com, the website that contains all the data for my blog (and I thought my podcast, too!) doesn’t support them. Of course, I had just recently purchased their hosting services for the next few years to get the best price.
After searching some forums, I found out that there was nothing I could do if I wanted to keep my web host. I could not use hostgator.com to host my podcast.
I went to bed exhausted and frustrated.
All day today, I was super tired and unmotivated to work productively. It felt like I couldn’t get anything done. No matter how hard I tried to focus, I simply couldn’t.
I was having a bad day.
While daydreaming (instead of working) I considered all the blogs on leadership I’ve been reading lately. Multiple great ideas for changing my attitude came to mind.
- Change my atmosphere
- Go for a walk in the sunshine
- Take a quick nap
- Eat some healthy food
I did none of those things. I stayed at work, trying to power through it, and got hardly anything done. After work, I stopped by McDonalds and got a McNugget meal, and played video games when I got home instead of working on multiple other things I wanted to accomplish today.
Sometimes we are our own worst enemy.
Sometimes we know exactly what we need to do, exactly what is in our best interest, and we don’t do it. Sometimes we do the opposite.
I’ll never understand why we are this way. I’ll never understand why we can completely believe something to be true and then act as if it weren’t.
I’ll also never understand why God would choose to use a vehicle as frail and flawed as humanity to accomplish his purposes.
There’s a passage from the Bible that I quote in this upcoming episode of my podcast that describes the intimate knowledge God has concerning each of us. It seems so strange to me that the One who knows all the inner workings of our imperfect hearts would be the same One who gave everything in order to be with us.
If only I had the same level of patience, compassion, and understanding that God has for me. And yet, that’s exactly what God calls us to have.
How you experienced God’s goodness in the midst of difficult circumstances?